It’s Friday, and five minutes is about all I have these days so I thought I’d join the Gypsy Mama and write with all I’ve got in the time I’ve got. Jump on over there and join us! One-handed typing is welcome. Can you tell?
Today’s topic? Enough. Here goes:
Sometimes I feel I’m drowning in a sea of dirty diapers, the scent of spit up hanging heavy in the air. I feed, burp, change….repeat. I wash the dishes, clean the counters and sometimes even cook the dinner. I close doors to rooms that I just can’t seem to clean and leave laundry half folded in piles throughout the house.
I play in spurts with kids who are learning to wait while others’ needs are met before their own. I cuddle one baby while the other cries then switch it up while the symphony of tears continues.
It is exhausting.
There, I said it.
But, it’s also beautiful though my bleary eyes are often blinded to the blessings. Sleepily, I stumble from one thing to the next, gathering grace like manna for each mundane moment of this mothering thing. It’s sufficient, you know. His grace. Enough for the moment and for this mother. I find it in quiet moments with half-drunk cups of coffee and, even more so, in quiet conversations with good friends. I pick it up each time I open the worn red Bible I received on the very first Mother’s Day someone could call me “Mom.”
Dawn Hall says
Beautifully put. Mothering is hard and beautiful and He is enough. Hug them while they will let you. I know everyone says that; they said it to me, but then one day I woke up and the 19 year old doesn’t need me or really want me anymore(for now), the 16 year old is too cool to need his mom and the 11 year old doesn’t think kisses and hugs are okay anymore. Hug and kiss them. Sorry to sound like that “old mom” but I am.
Very sweet post. And so true. It is hard to be a ‘mommy’ no matter what age your children. It is just a different ‘hardness’ at each stage. But your love for them will out weigh any difficult times. Whether it is endless diapers, the teenager years or when they are grown. And your right because will give you grace and he is sufficient. Just rest in him. (I just read the above comment…even if they don’t want the hugs and kisses keep offering! Mine have both been through those phases!)
it’s hard to feel like there’s enough “mom” to go around, isn’t it. when mine were both in diapers, there were days when there was just not enough of me to go around! thankfully, there was enough of Him to make up for the lack of me. as they got older, i found that there’s enough of me… just not enough patience or enough energy or enough… whatever. but always, there’s enough of Him. God is so good to me.